原创获奖文-我和孩子们的幸福生活--手心和手背
前阵子写的东西 分中英两类 关于家里其中两个孩子的'在我的记忆里,北京的冬天一直都是平淡无奇,它没有春天万物复苏生机勃勃的景象,也没有夏天骄阳似火的太阳,更没有秋天秋叶飘落凄美的样子,它有的只是银装素裹默默的把北京城覆盖在它的银妆之内…2年前的冬天,在我遇见我的儿子之后我突然发现我的心中有块深深的烙印,痛并快乐着…记得初见Tiger是在冬天下完第一场雪后，小小的它被关在大大的笼子里，小而有神的眼睛全神贯注的盯着我看，嘴里不时发出哼唧的声音，全身棕色漂亮的背毛衬托了它高贵的气质，我想在那一刻我被它折服了一只苏格兰牧羊犬。
有个朋友在看到Tiger后告诉我，狗是多么不好打理，每年换毛的时候家里就跟下雪似的。但是当我看到儿子的眼神时，我更加确定了自己心中的信念，爱一只狗一辈子的人，日子也许过的平淡无奇，却也安逸塌实，在风清云淡之间享受“相濡以沫”的美丽。小时候的Tiger很调皮，很多的时候我都在想，这么一个小小的身体，怎么隐藏着这么大的破坏力？沙发，鞋子，衣服都有过被它蹂躏的痕迹，每当我看着一只几个月大的小家伙撅着屁股对着沙发腿撕咬的时候,我都会有种无力的感觉油然而生,有时候常常在想,什么时候Tiger能长大?像电视或海报里边的牧羊犬英俊翩翩的样子?在Tiger啃坏无数双袜子,四脚沙发将要变成三角的时候,发生了件叫我至今难忘的事情,从那时我也才发现原来我对Tiger的爱已经深入骨髓…前一阵晚上带Tiger遛玩儿,遇见了几个遛狗的朋友, Tiger看见自己的伙伴后很高兴,自顾的玩了起来,看见Tiger在草地上奔跑,和小伙伴们抢着球,太阳的余光照射在它漂亮的背毛上,折射出温柔的光圈,我的心似乎也在感受着它的快乐,柔软起来… 正当我享受这份宁静的时候突然几声嘶哑的狗叫让我一激灵,寻声望去,一只哈士奇把Tiger撞倒在小树丛里撕咬低声咆哮着,我们赶紧过去把孩子们拉开,分别检查受伤情况, Tiger眼睛周围有几个小洞应该是被撞到小树丛扎的,嘴唇上掉了一块长3厘米深5毫米的肉,眼睛周围彻底肿了,当时给我心疼坏了,连忙带它回家,到家后Tiger显的很没精神,耳朵耷拉着,幽怨的看着我,眼神都好象能滴出水儿来,我捧着它的脸,看着看着眼泪不由自主的流下来,想着孩子从小到大虽然淘气,但是各方面我们都保护的很好,没受过这样的伤,这次我的大意换来孩子的破相,自责了很久, Tiger见我哭了用舌头舔了舔我,头静静的靠在我怀里,好象在说,妈妈,我不疼,真的,一点都不疼!… 自从那次破相事件后, Tiger变的很懂事.慢慢的迎来Tiger第一个生日,我想了很久,终于在Tiger生日那天给它找了个如花似玉的童养媳-悠悠,.悠悠虽然也是苏格兰牧羊犬,但是小时侯的它跟Tiger相比完全是南辕北辙的性格,悠悠胆子很小,刚到我们家的时候只是躲在一个小角落里怯生生的看着我,当我伸手抱着它的时候我能感觉到它在发抖,叫我不有自主的从心底泛起怜爱的情素…慢慢的过了几个月悠悠已经完全容入我们的家庭里,每天当我倦在沙发上漫无目的播着电视节目时,都能看到俩个孩子或在客厅的地上,或在走廊中打闹嬉戏,看着这副温暖的画面我渐入梦乡…突然有一天,我唤Tiger,它不理我,,也不和悠悠打招呼,不禁叫我想起这俩天它精神都不是很好,吃饭的时候也是匆匆的吃俩口就消失了,是不是病了?我轻轻把它抱在怀里,它没有反抗,把头歪在我的臂弯,用舌头轻轻的舔着我的脸.我摸摸它的体温和鼻子,也没有什么异样,便温柔的问:“宝贝你怎么了?” Tiger用幽怨的眼神看着我,似乎有好多话要说,长长的小脸在柔和的灯光下楚楚可怜,我不禁吻它的小鼻子,它也嗲嗲回应,好象所有心事都已经被我的爱化解,它陶醉在我怀里…
突然悠悠用头来蹭我的胳膊,一脸可爱:抱抱,抱抱,我就势也把它揽在怀里,它和Tiger两个柔软的小身体紧紧挨着,音响机里放着我最喜欢的钢琴曲<Kiss the rain>,悠悠慢慢熟睡在我怀里.突然Tiger挣脱了我的怀抱,眼中多了一丝冷漠,它看着悠悠撒娇的神情,很不满的嘟囔着,突然伸出爪子狠狠的打在悠悠的小脸上, 我和悠悠都惊呆了,Tiger一溜烟消失了,任我怎么“威逼利诱”就是不肯从床下出来.第二天早上溜狗的时候我依旧郁闷着,把昨晚的情形讲给很懂动物心理的朋友听,她立刻分析到,是你的偏心造成的,然后幸灾乐祸的看着我.于是我利马反省:因为悠悠小,身体又不是特好我一直在调理它的肠胃,自然是百般呵护,小心翼翼,加上它楚楚可怜的样子很会邀宠,我对悠悠难免多加一份疼爱…其实Tiger很聪明,它能从我的言行中体察我的偏心,无论眼神还是说话的语气,都被它清楚的分析了,难怪Tiger会玩失踪,它是在做无声的抗议!有时候会问自己觉不觉得做一个宠物主人的担子好重?但这就是乐趣呀,在你享受它们为你营造的温情的空间的时候,自己也应该为此付出智慧和精力的.下班的时候我一定买俩个一样大小一样颜色的球同时送给它们,然后再和它们一起玩耍,累了就拥着它们沉沉睡去……还有,我一定用心唤回Tiger对我的信任和依赖!
生活的每一步其实都是一种抉择.当我们选择有宠物的生活,当我们选择有爱情的生活,它们就已经是我们整个生命中不可缺少的一部分,细微的差别,也许就在爱与被爱之间,有条件与无条件之间.
我们因为热爱因为眷恋对那些无声的生命充满了热情和怜惜,于是我们需要在与它们的交流中将这种情素一点点释放,其实在养了Tiger之后我才明白,付出是需要力量的,需要长久不息的耐力,付出本身是美丽的,但是如果没有了力量,付出仅仅是一句穿着高尚外衣的赞美,它没有生命力,它带着苍白安慰自己着虚华,很多次我都重复的问自己要不要过着那样机械的生活,问自己能不能对俩个孩子的生活做出厚重的承偌?嗯…如果不能,就放弃一些好高桀远的追求,如果不能,就不要轻易对它们说:宝贝,我会爱你一辈子…
I and child happy life
- The control and the hand back in mine memory, Beijing's winter continuously all are ordinary, it does not have the spring myriad things to recover the full of vitality picture, also does not have the summer scorching sun sun, does not have the autumn fall leaf to fall gently the chilly beautiful appearance, it has only is the silver installs the white clothing silently to cover Beijing in its silver make-up within…2 year ago winters, meets me after me the son I discovered suddenly in my heart has the block depth brand mark, the pain and joyful…Remembered initially sees Tiger is after the winter the first snow, small it is closed in the big basket, small and the bright eye concentrates on completely to stare at I to look, in the mouth often made the sound which humph squirted, the whole body brown attractive back wool has served as contrast its noble makings, I wanted to subdue in that moment me by it a Scotland sheepdog. Has a friend after to see Tiger tells me, the dog is not good handles, trades the wool every year in the time family with snows resembles.But when I saw when son's look, in I more definite own heart faith, has loved a dog for a lifetime person, ordinary which the day perhaps crosses, actually also easy and comfortable dependable, pale between enjoys “helps one another in difficult time” the beauty in the wind clear cloud.Childhood Tiger was very mischievous, very many times I all was thinking, such a small body, how was hiding the such big destructive power? The sofa, the shoe, clothes all have had the trace which is devastated by it, whenever I look a how many month big kid does dig the buttocks to treat the sofa leg rips nips, I all can have plant the incapable feeling to arise spontaneously, sometimes frequently was thinking, when Tiger can grow up? Likely inside television or playbill sheepdog outstandingly talented handsome appearance? Gnaws badly the innumerable double socks in Tiger, four foot sofas are going to turn the triangle time, has to be called me until now the unforgettable matter, from me also only then discovered at that time originally I the love already penetrated the marrow to Tiger…A while ago evening brought the Tiger dawdle to play, meets several dawdle dog's friend, after Tiger saw own partner to be very happy, from attended to has played, saw Tiger to run on the lawn, snatched the ball with the little friends, sun's -odd light is shining on its attractive back wool, refracted the gentle aperture, my heart was as if also feeling its joy, was soft… Right I enjoy this tranquil time sudden several hoarse dogs to call to let me quickly grasp the meaning of something, seek the prestige to go, breathes out the gentleman to knock down wonderfully Tiger in the small grove rips nips is roaring in a low voice, we hurry to pull open the children, inspects separately is injured the situation, around the Tiger eye has several small holes to be supposed to be is hit the small grove to grip, on the lip fell length 3 centimeter depth 5 millimeters meats, around the eye has been swollen thoroughly, at that time loved dearly to me has gone bad, brought it to go home hastily, after proficient Tiger revealed does not have the spirit very much, the ear is drooping, hidden bitterness looking atI, the look all probably can drop the water leakage to come, I am holding its face, looks the tear cannot help but flows down, is thinking the child although from infancy to maturity mischievous, but various aspects we all protect very well, has not received such wound, this my general idea trades child's disfigurement, has rebuked oneself very for a long time, Tiger saw me to cry to lick me with the tongue, static depending on in my bosom, was probably saying, mother, I did not hurt, really, all did not hurt! … Since that time disfigures the event, Tiger changes very sensible. Slowly welcomes the Tiger first birthday, I had thought very long, finally that day has looked for a as pretty as a flower girl raised from childhood to be wife of son of family in the Tiger birthday to it - long. Also is although leisurely the Scotland sheepdog, but small time it compares the disposition with Tiger which is completely defeats the purpose, the long courage is very small, just arrived our family's time only was hides in a small quoin timid looks at me, when I put out a hand was holding its time I to be able to feel it was trembling, is called me not to have independently the sentiment element which exuded from the moral nature loves tenderly…The slowly several months already completely have accommodated into in leisurely our family, when every day I tiredly flanerie when the sofa is broadcasting the television program, all can see pair child or in living room ground, or creates a disturbance in the corridor plays, looks this vice-warm picture I gradually enter the dreamland…One day, I call Tiger suddenly, it pays no attention to me, also with does not greet, is unable to restrain to be called me to remember this pair day its spirit all is not leisurely very good, eats meal time also was in a hurry eats pair to vanish, got sick? I hold gently it in the bosom, it has not revolted, in mine crook of the elbow, gently is licking crookedly with the tongue my face. I trace its body temperature and the nose, also does not have what difference, then gentle asking: “Treasure you how?” Tiger looks at me with hidden bitterness look, as if some many speeches need to say, long small face under gentle light miserable, I am unable to restrain to kiss its small nose, it also whines the response, probably all concerns all already by mine love melt, it are infatuated with in my bosom… The long specific use rubs my arm suddenly, a face is lovable: Hugs, hugs, I take advantage of a situation also to embrace it in the bosom, it and the Tiger two soft small bodies closely is suffering, in the sounder is putting steel qin tune Kiss the rain which< I most like>, slowly sleeps soundly leisurely in my bosom. Tiger has worked loose my bosom suddenly, in the eye many indifferences, it looks acts like a spoiled brat leisurely the facial expression, not full is mumbling very much, stretches out claw maliciously hitting suddenly on the long small face, I and all have been startled leisurely, the Tiger speedily has vanished, no matter what how I “do combine threats with inducements” on not to be willing to come out from the bed. The second day early morning walks a dog time I as before melancholy, spoke last night situation for the friend who understood very much the animal psychology listens, she analyzes immediately, is your bias creates, then took pleasure in others' misfortunes looks at me. Therefore my Lima engages in introspection: Because long small, the body is not especially good I is recuperating its stomach continuously, is naturally protects in every possible way, cautiously, its miserable appearance very can cater to in addition, I to unavoidably add one to dote on leisurely…Actually Tiger is very intelligent, it can carefully examine my bias from mine words and deeds, regardless of the look speaks the expression, all by its clear analysis, no wonder Tiger has spoken to play is missing, it is making the silent protest! Sometimes can ask oneself thought makes a pet master's shoulder pole well heavy? But this is the pleasure, enjoys them in you tender feeling space time which builds for you, own also should pay the wisdom and the energy for this. Gets off work time I buy certainly the pair same size same color the ball simultaneously to give them, then again and they play together, tired has supported them to sink the deep sleep to go ......Also, I call Tiger certainly attentively to my trust and the dependence! Life each step all is actually one kind of choice. When we choose have pet's life, when we choose have love life, they already were in our entire life an essential part, perhaps the slight difference, on in the love with by the love between, is had the condition and unconditionally between. Because we deeply love because was attached to these silent lives has filled the enthusiasm and take pity on, therefore we needed in with in theirs exchange this kind of sentiment element little release, after it has really raised Tiger I only then to understand that, paid needs the strength, needed the long-time not rest the endurance, paid itself is beautiful, but if did not have the strength, paid is merely is putting on noble coat praising, it did not have the vitality, it brought to comfort oneself empty palely, very many I all duplicated asked oneself has wanted such machinery life, asked oneself can to a pair childThe life makes sincerely receives so? Mmm…If cannot, give up some good Gao Jie Yuan the pursue, if cannot, not have to say easily to them: The treasure, I can love you for a lifetime…
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